fuck everything. seriously, i'm done with life. i just want to get in a highspeed car crash and die on impact. i'm TIRED of nothing working and i'm tired of being depressed 24/7. i hate faking happy. i'm always sick, i'm always tired, i'm always depressed. i'm done. jackelyn's depressed and i have no idea what she's doing, and i'm terrified. i just want everything to be okay. i know that's a high fucking expectation, but i dont give a fuck. it's what i want. i want a lot of things. i want everything to just work out for once in my stupid pathetic fucking life. i'm

noddin' my head like yeah

i miss the way things used to be. i hate not sleeping until 5 am and waking up at like, 4 pm. i feel like a wasted human being, seriously. i dont eat, im starving myself. it feels good. i like not eating. but then again, im always hungry. but im just so terrified of eating.

hnnng

i just want to sleep forever.

why...

why does everything hurt me so much lately? i cant have fun doing the things i usually love doing. i get no thrill. ever.

i want a cape.

i feel like im going to faint any second.

just listen.

i need someone to do that.

not judge, not even talk back.

i need a mime to just sit and vent to after every day.

someone who wont ask questions about who people are, ask for back stories, things like that.

lsdkjkght.

that's so raaaven;

nobody reads this.

hahahahah k.