noddin' my head like yeah

i miss the way things used to be. i hate not sleeping until 5 am and waking up at like, 4 pm. i feel like a wasted human being, seriously. i dont eat, im starving myself. it feels good. i like not eating. but then again, im always hungry. but im just so terrified of eating.

hnnng

i just want to sleep forever.

why...

why does everything hurt me so much lately? i cant have fun doing the things i usually love doing. i get no thrill. ever.

i want a cape.

i feel like im going to faint any second.

just listen.

i need someone to do that.

not judge, not even talk back.

i need a mime to just sit and vent to after every day.

someone who wont ask questions about who people are, ask for back stories, things like that.

lsdkjkght.

that's so raaaven;

nobody reads this.

hahahahah k.

k.

so here i am again. im sick of shit. im sick of so many things in my life right now; no school, no money, no sleep, no food. i just wish everything was back to the way it used to be, when i had regular things to worry about, like homework, and boys. now all i worry/think about is if im going to be able to sleep at night, whether im going to have a panic attack or not, stupid things like that i dont think someone my age should have to worry about all the time.

im considering my moms option of checking me into some sort of institute.

i want to fix my life.