close my eyes, & i'll be by your side <3

the world is constantly moving and changing, and fate is challenged with every step made by every human on it. who knows if everyone has a specific someone there supposed to be with, but i do believe that love is real and that it is possible to find it no matter how old you are.
-Martin Johnson

this guy means everything to me. without him, i'd probably be nothing.

there was a longing in your eyes .. ;

suup. nobody even reads this, i'm gonna stop for a while.

fgaesjg.

I can't remember last night.
I can't remember anything
I can't remember last night.
I can't remember anything
Turn that fucking shit up
Party til you pass out, drink til' you're dead.
Dance all night til you can't feel your legs
Party til you pass out, drink til' you're dead.
Dance all fucking raahwwrr
Party til you pass out, drink til' you're dead.
Dance all night til you can't feel your legs
Party til you pass out, drink til' you're dead.
Dance all fucking raaawwwrr.


i can't think of anybody else who i hate to miss, as much i hate missing you

i feel like such an insomniac.

why is my bestfriend being such a bitch? she's saying i chose a guy over her. i want her to know i'd actually never do that, no matter who the guy is. but this is just getting a little ridiculous. anytime i mention him, she goes all quiet and into a little bubble. i just wish she would get over this, because it's only hurting us both.

i can still remember, the day you up and left.

if i can't see boyslikegirls in concert, i might actually have to consider dying.

set my concsious on fire, that's what your good for

lately , i don't even know anymore . grade ten sched. sucks , i'm not with ANY of my friends for ANYTHING . i'm not scared for the year , it's the fact that i'm in two classes i didn't ask for , both of which i know i'll fail , which won't be my fault because i didn't choose them in the first place .

on a happier note, i finally got my ipod synced to laptop, which actually has the music i want on it . no more jonas brothers and hannah montana !
i just looked down, and realized there was a spot of blood on my shorts. now i'm left wondering where it came from , and why i never noticed it before .

say hello to goodbye.

its been so long.
he's dating her, and im still not dating him. it kills me everyday to hear him talk about how much he cares about her, when deep down i know that i care about him more than i should. being in love with your best friend is the most painful thing to go through, because you get to hear about everything that's going on with them, meanwhile you just want to scream out how much you love them, and how you'd do anything just to make them happy.

you drove me crazy everytime we touched, now im so broken that i can't get up.

over and over.

its been so long.
i jumped again, i saw RAEHA FUCKING CONDON again. that made me happy. im talking to him again, which makes me incredibally happy. everythings going not so bad right now.

i'll burn out, and slip away.

grandpa; <3
im so sorry for not being able to talk to you without crying, its just im so worried about you.
i couldn't even bring myself to look at you without having tears come to my eyes, let alone say anything to you without sobbing. i feel like such a horrible person for forcing my way out of the hospital room without even making an attempt to say i love you or anything.
i want you to know, i love you more than anything.

ah..

camp kids. *really scared face*

boom boom.

im gonna get my ass kicked outta that place faster than i could say 'sorry you suck at coaching'

you faaaail.

you fail at life. honestly, nothing you do is even right. i hate you, and i hope i never even have to see you again cause, i'm a better EVERYTHING than you. you are so retarded, honestly you ruined my night. i don't understand why you were there, honestly, your worthless. really. how can someone, the same level as me, coach me too. i would rather not have been coached at all, than to be coached by someone who makes us do bending poles and like, first level shit. and musical poles? like WHAT THE HELLLLLL...is that.

kbye.

okay..lets make a new one.

i dont even know what to think about you anymore. do i give you the time of day, or do i just let you go?
its like a great person once said 'you cant be a fail. your hannah.'

hellzyeuuus.

horseshoooooooooooow.
you can go ahead and have him, i dont care. i hope he gives you fucking aids (:

i don't understand the whole 'play them hot and cold' thing. like treat them like gold, treat them like shit. i don't and never did understand it. like how do people do it? i myself can't toy with someone's feelings like that. if i like someone, they know that i like them. and when i like them, i'm not in it for anything other than to be appreciated the same way. and i'm totally not cut out for this "seeing someone" for like a month or two then leaving them thinking "we were never really official anyway." plus you leave them 'cause you're friends aren't into them as much as you are. i have friends who've done it and friends who've had it done to them and it's fuct. like why make things complicated?! if you like the person, you like them. you don't have to listen to every other fucker who doesn't. we're talking about the one person that cares about you more than those people who can't even respect you for who you're happy with. NIGGA SHIT. then we have those people who can't differentiate between the ones that want to mess with you and the ones that only have genuine intentions to be your friend. oh love is so complicated sometimes. why so complicated!? i thought that special someone was made for the ribs of the person they love so as to always protect the mans heart. huh?! where ya at now genesis!!! hahaha, you know i'm just playin' God..
but if loving were easy, it wouldn't be love.

everything is..

so wrong. i don't know why i gave up what i had for you, when all along you never even wanted me back. i can't believe i'm so stupid to think i EVER had a chance with you, when in the end you just wanted to hurt me. i feel like fucking dying right now, no thanks to you.
but its okay. cause i know that you were probably never gonna be the one for me anyways. there's so much better i could do. you mean nothing to me anymore. so fuck you, fuck your girlfriend, and fuck everything i thought you ever meant to me.

don't you ever tell me i'm not loving you best

i wish i was the one you call beautiful everytime we talk.

and the only thing you want is just to be still for a while <3

i love the sound of your voice.
i love all you do.
i wish you were mine.

you da fucken best.

exams start on my birthday, hangout with raeha, kaitlyn , blake , consent girlies, AIRA, madi, talk to HIM, pass exams, and ride every day of the summer.
this is kinda the life i've almost always wanted.

do do do.

im paranoid. im sick outta my brain, and i wish i wouldnt have let you go for him.

fml.

everything is falling apart now. EVERYTHING. i thought everything was going so well..then you had to come along and kinda ruin everything.
my heart feels like its breaking into a million little peices and right now nothing can make it better. i used to feel like i could do anything.
now i feel like im useless

yes please/

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?created&&suggest&note_id=85170627435#/video/video.php?v=111547512278&ref=nf

UGH!

im so FUCKING in LOVE with you! WHY CANT I BE HER. she doesn't DESERVE you like i do...FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU! FUCK HER, FUCK ALL OF YOU.

fml x 1000

tonight was the greatest night of my life so far.
then my mom had to come and ruin it. doesnt help that everything i saw tonight, is MORE than off limits to someone like me.
why do i bother trying anymore?

you turn me on like a lightswitch.

dayuum, jl yous a hottie! the way you move that ass. mm ;)
i want that in my bed, yo. i want all of you in my bed.

LOL

k..

now your gone.
i fucking miss you.

scream a little louder for me, baby.

im in a scary movie frenzie.

you got me inna trance, baby.

i am seriously so in love with you. everything you do, anytime you talk to me, my heart crumbles to peices. i know that i can't have you..but knowing that makes me want you even more. everything you say to me makes my heart skip a beat, and i wish on every star i could call you mine.

i kinda seriously want to spend the rest of my life with you <3

what i want.

i wanna be in dtc. they're all so close, always seem to be having so much fun, and they all seem to be dating each other? i want that. i want ALL of it. i want that kind of FAMILY within my school. especially today, watching the dance rally. when ms sofia was calling their names, i would have loved to have been up there and have her call my name as i come out.
i want to be in dtc.
end of story.

GRR FML FML.

I AM SO ANGRY.
i think aj rafael should still come to winnipeg. screw passports, sneak in. people do it all the time.

i'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold <3

i'm really starting to love my life. today was fucking great, after school most of all. saw madi, abby and charlie. abby, who i haven't fucking seen since grade 6 or some shit.

well here we are again.

throwing punchlines, no one wins.

my life needs a reality checkk.

things im thankful for;
my family
my home
the food i eat
clothes
school
friends
my PONY
my boyfriend
cellphone
the fact that i'm all healthy and shit
i have people who care for me.

i need to stop feeling so down about the shit i dont have, and be thankful for what i DO have. cause theres a hella lotta people out there that would kill for what i take for granted.

does this mean anything?

there was a three story building and the third floor could not be accessed due to a 16 year old boy who was WHITE pale, sitting against the stairs. he would never physically try and prevent you from going through the door, but as soon as you got close you would simply be too afraid to go any further. the building was my dad's workshop, and there was an empty lot to the left of it if you were to look at it from the front. the boy was completely alive, but he was dead certain that he was no longer living. he was in a total state of unstability, unable to properly communicate with anyone. apparently, according to 'legend' in my dream, if you ever saw theh boy outside of the building, you would be the next person to die. i repeatedly saw him outside of the building in various places, such as at school, in rearview mirrors, and in regular mirrors.

hannah

needs new friends

i'm a zombiee.

even though i feel so far behind, i feel alot more ahead of you.

your a drunk! get help!

really, i love being there.

oOoOo

;) ;) ;)

aw man =(

jeez, how did i miss this. ugh..im really upset now. i missed jumping outside cause of my stupid stupid STUPID flu >:( im not happy. i wanna jump outside!

ughh >:(

MOTHER.
why must you do this to me?
i want to ride !
just because i'm sick doesn't mean i can't ride. i feel perfectly fine now. but NOW i feel like crying cause your not letting me ride and i haven't ridden since saturday.
im not impressed.

i say you the fucken best, the best i ever had .

germono ;
i want you to know if you ever need me, at ANY time, just call me. i'm always gunna be there for you lovely <3

like i always do

You gave me a reasontold me that ill always be yoursyou are my desiremy heart is so on fire for youi cant stop loving you loving you oh no
because i dont wanna end up in your rearviewwanna be someone you can turn tobaby i never wanna lose youtheres nothing i wont do
so ill watch you like a movieill sing you like a songread you like a storyif it takes me all night longkeep you like a secretill tell you like a jokeits true its truethat ill love you like i always dolove you like i always dolove you like like
you are so amazingyou stepped in and saved my lifeeverytime we are togethermy time is yours forevermy world is all yours
i dont wanna end up in your rearviewwanna be someone you can turn tobaby i never wanna lose youtheres nothing i wont do
so ill watch you like a movieill sing you like a songread you like a storyif it takes me all night longkeep you like a secretill tell you like a jokeits true its truethat ill love you like i always do
baby ill never leave no ill never leave youi will watch you like a movieill sing you like a songread you like a storyif it takes me all night longkeep you like a secretill tell you like a jokeits true its truethat ill love you like i always do
i said im gonna love you yehh ohhim gonna love youi said im gonna love you ohh ohh yehhima love you like i always doyehh yehhim gonna love youlove you like i always do

i like this one too ;D

you the fucken best .

Baby you my everything you all i ever wanted. We can do it real big.Bigger then you ever done it. You be up on everything.Other hoes ain't never on it. I want this forever, i swear i can spend whatever on it. Cause she hold me down everytime i hit her up. When i get right i promise that we gon live it up. She make me beg for it till she give it up. And I say the same thing every single time. I say you the fucking best. You the fucking best. You the fucking best. You the fucking best. You the best i ever had. Best I ever had. Best I ever had.Best I ever had. I say you the fucking.Know you got a roommate Call me when its no one there Put the key under the mat And you know I'll be over there (Yup) I'll be over there Shawty, I'll be over there I'll be hitting all the spots that u ain't even know was there Ha. And you ain't even have to ask twice You can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice Always felt like you was so accustom to the fast life Have a nigga thinking that he met you in a past lifeSweat pants, hair tied, chilling with no make up on Thats when your the prettiest I hope that you don take it wrong You don't even trip when friends say you ain't bringing Drake along You know that I'm working I'll be there soon as I make it homeAnd she a patient in my waiting room Never pay attention to them rumors and what they assume And until them girls prove it I'm the one to Never get confused with Cause. Baby you my everything you all i ever wanted. We can do it real big.Bigger then you ever done it. You be up on everything.Other hoes ain't never on it. I want this forever, i swear i can spend whatever on it. Cause she hold me down everytime i hit her up. When i get right i promise that we gon live it up. She make me beg for it till she give it up. And I say the same thing every single time. I say you the fucking best. You the fucking best. You the fucking best. You the fucking best. You the best i ever had. Best I ever had. Best I ever had.Best I ever had. I say you the fucking.Sex, Love, Pain Baby I be on that tank shit Buzz so big i could probably sell a blank disk When my album drop Bitches will buy it for the picture And niggas will buy it too and claim they got it for they sister Magazine paper girl But money ain't the issue They bring dinner to my room and ask me to initialShe call me the referee Cause I be so officialMy shirt ain't got no stripes but I can make yo pussy whistle Like the Andy Griffith theme song And who told you to put them jeans on double cup love You the one i lean on Feeling for a fix then you should really get yo pheen on Yea just know my condo is the crack spot Every single show she out there repping like a mascotGet it from the back And make yo fucking bra strap pop All up in yo slot until the nigga hit the jackpots Baby you my everything you all i ever wanted. We can do it real big.Bigger then you ever done it. You be up on everything.Other hoes ain't never on it. I want this forever, i swear i can spend whatever on it. Cause she hold me down everytime i hit her up. When i get right i promise that we gon live it up. She make me beg for it till she give it up. And I say the same thing every single time. I say you the fucking best. You the fucking best. You the fucking best. You the fucking best. You the best i ever had. Best I ever had. Best I ever had.Best I ever had. I say you the fucking.

i like this one

yuuck :(

sickk at the barn
sick at home
just plain SICK !
:(

food.

i'm so freaking hungry, i've hardly eaten ANYTHING since tuesday. :(

yeeauh

thanks for being there for me guys
you mean so much...
*fucking NOT*
shit load of friends, what are you good for?
NOTHING

calmit horatio caine...

pokemon = life. im such a nerdd.

calmit horatio caine...

pokemon = life. im such a nerdd.

moments are niceee.

fdkghw4eihvaaireuhbusrhbrgowjrborfk , 14 fucking daaays! :D

i miss how you feel

uggh, i hate my hair. i go to sleep with my hair looking really nice and my bangs flat and DOWN and i wake up and it's like ngeeeghblaahj its all ober the place o.O >:(

you've got a smile that could light up this whole town <3

why don't you talk to me anymore :( we used to be so close now we never talk at all! the last time we talked for more than 10 minutes was so long ago... i can't even remember our friendship :(

im sorry

maaan, im sorry i make you do things then later i never even appreciate it.
i want you to know i appreciate everything you do more than anything else anyone else does because you have ALWAYS been there for me no matter what.
i love you daddy <3

ngaaagh!

i HATE having a brother. i hate who my brother is! i seriously wish he was never born...

<3

somedays, i don't understand how i deserve you. your the greatest thing that's ever come to me. your a great teacher and an amazing listener. i'm sorry for past and future times in which i've gotten mad at you for the small things you do which i blow way out of proportion. your so perfect and i dont understand how you put up with me.

beau, i love you more than life itself. your the reason i do anything anymore.

anyone?

jeeesus christ timmy , get outta the bag.

oohshiit

http://www.serebii.net/platinum/legends.shtml

D:

eek!

who knows the legendaries in the sinnoh reigon? [platinum]

baaad ..

fricken , i had another breakdown in electrical ! i started crying so much . its all cause of my guilt trip i took last night .

despersation

I NEED TO GO TO THAT CONCERT .

:'(

jjay , i miss you

i remember how the first time i saw you , i invinsioned you being my little show pony .

now i never even get to see you anymore

why did i ever doubt your potential

you were getting so far in your training

i never really got to finish training you

now i would give anything to have you back

cause right now i miss you more than anything

and i remember how anytime you would be spooky , i would sing to you and you would calm down

and how whenever i was upset

you were THERE for me , as though you knew how i felt . and you probably did .

feeling like nobody wants you

and now i want you back

you meant everything to me

and i know i meant everything to you .

i'm so sorry if i ever forgot to tell you how much i love you

and how amazing you are

and how you deserve everything in the world , more than i could ever give you

i never even got to give you a proper goodbye

cause i didn't know i was leaving you

if i had known , i would have spent all day with you because I LOVE YOU

and you mean everything to me

i hate the fact that i used to say that i hated you cause you wouldn't do what i asked

when really , you just didn't know what was being asked of you .

you were always so patient with me , so gentle and caring .

i HATE now that nobody is loving you , your just standing around all day , good for nothing .

when really , you are good for something

your good for everything

jjay , i want you to know that no matter where i am

i will always love you more than anything , so no matter how rough times get , i'm always thinking about you .

i love you more than anything <3

fucking stressed .

fuckiiing shiiet , EXAMS .
i definitly did not prepare myself right for this shit . it's the beginning of the year , now suddenly its exams so soon ? i just don't understand how time can fly so fast at sometimes and yet when you wish things would just hurry the hell up , time seems to drag along .

fml , i feel bad for quitting my art lesson :( my mom paid big money for that and i went to 3 classes . :(

everything in my life is going so downhill , yet at the same time everythings going just right . barn life is perfect . i just wish i could spend my entire day there , and never have to worry about anything else again . i just wish that i could fast forward time . nothing but my horse means anything to me anymore

ugh fml why am i having a guilt trip ! i feel like crying about every small thing i've ever done . i hate my fucking sensitivity :( i wish there was also a rewind button ? cause now i realize i could easily sit through 2 hours of art class if i can sit through 6 hours of school a day . somedays i wish i never made half the desicions i've ever made .

this was such a good day til now :(

i know we had our differences

its pretty amazing how we work , the fact that we can do anything .

that's a given

im tired dammit . i want to sleep . why do i always wake up 5 million times in a night ? now i'm stuck watching lizzie mcguire at 4:30 am cause i fricken woke UP >.<

i dont know if i like you or not, the way you act around me is definitely different than how you normally act
and i dont know if i like it or not.

!

WHY IS THERE A FACEBOOK UPLOADING ERROR !

love therapy ?

i love my hooorse
i dont really get what i ever did to deserve him
i neeeeeed to get over my fear of JUMPS .
it's not point and shoot .
it's not fence - = JUMP
it's counting the right strides
holding 2point for the right amount of time
the right release
yeah i kinda clench up into a ball .

anyways , about the rest of shit .
life at school sucks , i can't even talk to my 'friends' about stuff anymore cause i don't know who they're gonna go run off and tell !
shiiieet , yo .

tired and inspired <3

back hurts , tired , eyes hurt , waiting for paula .
get heeere D;

first ?

so , i never done this before . i got the idea after reading AJ's Life pretty much my favorite blog ever . thats what gave me the idea . although i doubt anybodies ever gonna read this ? yeeuh .

kbye.