i miss how you feel

uggh, i hate my hair. i go to sleep with my hair looking really nice and my bangs flat and DOWN and i wake up and it's like ngeeeghblaahj its all ober the place o.O >:(

you've got a smile that could light up this whole town <3

why don't you talk to me anymore :( we used to be so close now we never talk at all! the last time we talked for more than 10 minutes was so long ago... i can't even remember our friendship :(

im sorry

maaan, im sorry i make you do things then later i never even appreciate it.
i want you to know i appreciate everything you do more than anything else anyone else does because you have ALWAYS been there for me no matter what.
i love you daddy <3

ngaaagh!

i HATE having a brother. i hate who my brother is! i seriously wish he was never born...

<3

somedays, i don't understand how i deserve you. your the greatest thing that's ever come to me. your a great teacher and an amazing listener. i'm sorry for past and future times in which i've gotten mad at you for the small things you do which i blow way out of proportion. your so perfect and i dont understand how you put up with me.

beau, i love you more than life itself. your the reason i do anything anymore.

anyone?

jeeesus christ timmy , get outta the bag.

oohshiit

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D:

eek!

who knows the legendaries in the sinnoh reigon? [platinum]

baaad ..

fricken , i had another breakdown in electrical ! i started crying so much . its all cause of my guilt trip i took last night .

despersation

I NEED TO GO TO THAT CONCERT .

:'(

jjay , i miss you

i remember how the first time i saw you , i invinsioned you being my little show pony .

now i never even get to see you anymore

why did i ever doubt your potential

you were getting so far in your training

i never really got to finish training you

now i would give anything to have you back

cause right now i miss you more than anything

and i remember how anytime you would be spooky , i would sing to you and you would calm down

and how whenever i was upset

you were THERE for me , as though you knew how i felt . and you probably did .

feeling like nobody wants you

and now i want you back

you meant everything to me

and i know i meant everything to you .

i'm so sorry if i ever forgot to tell you how much i love you

and how amazing you are

and how you deserve everything in the world , more than i could ever give you

i never even got to give you a proper goodbye

cause i didn't know i was leaving you

if i had known , i would have spent all day with you because I LOVE YOU

and you mean everything to me

i hate the fact that i used to say that i hated you cause you wouldn't do what i asked

when really , you just didn't know what was being asked of you .

you were always so patient with me , so gentle and caring .

i HATE now that nobody is loving you , your just standing around all day , good for nothing .

when really , you are good for something

your good for everything

jjay , i want you to know that no matter where i am

i will always love you more than anything , so no matter how rough times get , i'm always thinking about you .

i love you more than anything <3

fucking stressed .

fuckiiing shiiet , EXAMS .
i definitly did not prepare myself right for this shit . it's the beginning of the year , now suddenly its exams so soon ? i just don't understand how time can fly so fast at sometimes and yet when you wish things would just hurry the hell up , time seems to drag along .

fml , i feel bad for quitting my art lesson :( my mom paid big money for that and i went to 3 classes . :(

everything in my life is going so downhill , yet at the same time everythings going just right . barn life is perfect . i just wish i could spend my entire day there , and never have to worry about anything else again . i just wish that i could fast forward time . nothing but my horse means anything to me anymore

ugh fml why am i having a guilt trip ! i feel like crying about every small thing i've ever done . i hate my fucking sensitivity :( i wish there was also a rewind button ? cause now i realize i could easily sit through 2 hours of art class if i can sit through 6 hours of school a day . somedays i wish i never made half the desicions i've ever made .

this was such a good day til now :(

i know we had our differences

its pretty amazing how we work , the fact that we can do anything .

that's a given

im tired dammit . i want to sleep . why do i always wake up 5 million times in a night ? now i'm stuck watching lizzie mcguire at 4:30 am cause i fricken woke UP >.<

i dont know if i like you or not, the way you act around me is definitely different than how you normally act
and i dont know if i like it or not.

!

WHY IS THERE A FACEBOOK UPLOADING ERROR !

love therapy ?

i love my hooorse
i dont really get what i ever did to deserve him
i neeeeeed to get over my fear of JUMPS .
it's not point and shoot .
it's not fence - = JUMP
it's counting the right strides
holding 2point for the right amount of time
the right release
yeah i kinda clench up into a ball .

anyways , about the rest of shit .
life at school sucks , i can't even talk to my 'friends' about stuff anymore cause i don't know who they're gonna go run off and tell !
shiiieet , yo .

tired and inspired <3

back hurts , tired , eyes hurt , waiting for paula .
get heeere D;

first ?

so , i never done this before . i got the idea after reading AJ's Life pretty much my favorite blog ever . thats what gave me the idea . although i doubt anybodies ever gonna read this ? yeeuh .

kbye.