fuck everything. seriously, i'm done with life. i just want to get in a highspeed car crash and die on impact. i'm TIRED of nothing working and i'm tired of being depressed 24/7. i hate faking happy. i'm always sick, i'm always tired, i'm always depressed. i'm done. jackelyn's depressed and i have no idea what she's doing, and i'm terrified. i just want everything to be okay. i know that's a high fucking expectation, but i dont give a fuck. it's what i want. i want a lot of things. i want everything to just work out for once in my stupid pathetic fucking life. i'm