:'(

jjay , i miss you

i remember how the first time i saw you , i invinsioned you being my little show pony .

now i never even get to see you anymore

why did i ever doubt your potential

you were getting so far in your training

i never really got to finish training you

now i would give anything to have you back

cause right now i miss you more than anything

and i remember how anytime you would be spooky , i would sing to you and you would calm down

and how whenever i was upset

you were THERE for me , as though you knew how i felt . and you probably did .

feeling like nobody wants you

and now i want you back

you meant everything to me

and i know i meant everything to you .

i'm so sorry if i ever forgot to tell you how much i love you

and how amazing you are

and how you deserve everything in the world , more than i could ever give you

i never even got to give you a proper goodbye

cause i didn't know i was leaving you

if i had known , i would have spent all day with you because I LOVE YOU

and you mean everything to me

i hate the fact that i used to say that i hated you cause you wouldn't do what i asked

when really , you just didn't know what was being asked of you .

you were always so patient with me , so gentle and caring .

i HATE now that nobody is loving you , your just standing around all day , good for nothing .

when really , you are good for something

your good for everything

jjay , i want you to know that no matter where i am

i will always love you more than anything , so no matter how rough times get , i'm always thinking about you .

i love you more than anything <3